Portugal:the remeder 7
Although there are days when you feel like nothing ever happens (as hilario camacho said), the truth is that every moment is new and unrepeatable. You might think you've already experienced similar situations where routine took hold,don't be fooled; the problem lies in your ability to observe and the way you weigh events. It's true that there are memorable moments or days: your wedding, the birth of a child, the loss of someone, etc., but on those empty days, aren't wonders still happening in your body? hasn't the sun risen? haven't you gotten rid of your boss? or the impertinence of that idiot? every moment is unique; you'll never again experience your sixtieth birthday at 3:00 p.m.
Well, maybe this May 6th wasn't as "productive" as I expected, but the simple and wonderful fact of having experienced it should silence your Inner Critic and tts Judgments. It's a gift to be here, a gift others have envied (some healthily, others obscenely). I've never been able to understand why one person's well-being bothers others, for which i bear no responsibility. Stripped of the religious connotations of the seven deadly sins, one concludes that they are truly the evils that corrupt humanity. And some sins are more harmful to others than to oneself.
Of all the negative emotions, envy is undoubtedly the most reprehensible. Because, to get back to the point, there is no such thing as healthy envy. Envy is a desire to have what others have or are, but we only "buy" part of what they are, of what we desire. If we see a sports car, the thinking machine immediately kicks in and activates envy. In reality, we might not even want to be the person driving the object of our desire; we want the object itself. Possibly, if a genie in a lamp granted it to us, we would get bored with it, or we would say, "this thing uses a lot of fuel," "the parts are expensive," and so on, all the possible and impossible excuses for what we envied. But we will continue repeating that sequence over and over again, again and again. Desire is associated with the problem of dissatisfaction. There is no desire that stimulates an elixir of happiness; quite the contrary.
Accepting what we are given is an act of communion with life. It's not exactly about being passive, or, as they used to say in my youth, "not caring about anything." There's no connection between envy and wanting to achieve your own goals. Surely, you'll end up valuing what you've earned through your effort more than what was given to you as a gift. That's why i reject gifts from banks, shopping malls, companies, etc. Their value dies the moment the giver is trying to buy you off.
I think it's always possible to escape many situations that imprison us, but there's a price to pay, one we sometimes refuse out of insecurity, fear, or because it affects others we're connected to. The choice is yours. It doesn't matter if someone calls you a coward or selfish, cruel; your life belongs only to you, but you'll have to live with your decision.Who is anyone to tell you when and how you want to die? Because your life has reached a breaking point where nothing makes sense anymore, you've reached the limit of what's bearable; your illness is so aggressive that it only brings you suffering. You don't need a reason to not want to keep living; it just happens.